Chapter 32

Straying Path (惑う旅路, Madou Tabiji) is the 32nd chapter of the To Your Eternity manga.

Summary
Fushi walks alone for four and a half days in silence. He shows many emotions on his walk and the Beholder thinks he has gained "something" from Gugu's death.

Fushi demands that the Beholder shows himself and he complies. Fushi asks what he should do now and the Beholder tells him to continue on and become stronger to get back what was stolen from him. Fushi asks what he is and what does the Beholder want from him. The Beholder tells him he created him to collect information on and protect the place and that the Beholder is like his father. Fushi rejects such a notion. Fushi asks why didn't he die and why did Gugu have to die. The Beholder explains that all things eventually fade but he is the one special existence in the world. He goes on to explain the Nokkers wish to control Fushi. Fushi gets the idea to transform into a potato to hide from the Nokkers but the Beholder stops him. The Beholder tells Fushi that the Nokkers won't give up easily and that if Fushi loses all his forms he'll revert back to a sphere and he will never be able to become as he is now. Angrily, Fushi asks why the Beholder doesn't fight the Nokkers by controlling him. The Beholder agrees he himself is strong but he cannot control Fushi's mind. He informs Fushi that he'll eventually die and that it is essential for Fushi to be able to fight against the enemy himself. The two fight and Fushi exclaims that no matter what he does Gugu won't come back so nothing matters anymore. Fushi, as Joaan, gets distracted by a smell in the distance and runs towards it. He runs into Pioran and both and happy to see each other again. Pioran explains that she remembers that she brought Fushi to Takunaha to help him but she ultimately couldn't do anything, so now she wants to continue travelling with him. Fushi asks if Booze Man will be okay and Pioran assures him that Shin and Rean are helping to keep the store afloat. Fushi tells her to go back because it's dangerous. She tells him she thought about what meaning she can find in the little life she has left. And the only answer she can think of is to support Fushi. Fushi once agains rejects her proposal saying he doesn't want anyone else to suffer. But Pioran fights back saying it's her life and she does what she wants. Fushi gives up and allows her to come. He asks her to promise him not to die and she agrees.

Chapter Notes

 * The Beholder tells Fushi that he created him to collect information on and protect the place.
 * The Beholder can control Fushi's forms.
 * We learn that if Fushi loses all his forms he'll revert back to a sphere and won't be able to become like he is now.
 * The Beholder says the Nokkers goal is to destroy him and Fushi.
 * The Beholder says he will die one day.
 * The Beholder's goal will be accomplished once Fushi to be able to fight against the enemy by himself.
 * Fushi and Pioran are reunited and begin travelling together again.