Chapter 142

Chasing Dreams (かけていくゆめ, Kakete iku Yume) is the 142nd chapter of the To Your Eternity manga.

Summary
To Izumi, Mizuha's life was her own life. As she made Mizuha try different things, she felt like she was growing up with her. Though that growth brought Izumi pain. The better she raised Mizuha, the more fitting she became as the successor. So she tried to drown out the thoughts of the Guardians by pushing Mizuha to do more. Eventually, she noticed she started becoming more forgetful, most likely due to the Nokker inside her taking over. She started documenting her life through photos as to not forget.

One day Mizuha tells her mother she doesn't want to go to practise since it made her friends not want to talk to her. Izumi tells her that anyone who says that isn't a real friend and that she should just ignore it. Mizuha dejectedly agrees. Eventually, Mizuha becomes overworked and sick. Her father wonders if they're pushing Mizuha too hard and Izumi takes it as a personal attack against her. She defensively yells that it's his fault that she is pushing Mizuha so hard because she's trying to distance her and Mizuha from the Guardians. Mizuha's father yells back that he just cares about Mizuha as his own daughter and that Izumi's never done anything for Mizuha's own sake. Izumi is stunned by his words and blacks out. Izumi eventually comes to and finds that she's at her old home. Izumi finds her father and berates him wondering why she and her family are at his house. Things get heated and her husband restrains her. He yells and tells her it was her suggestion to come to her old home so they can take a break for Mizuha's sake. Once again, Izumi is struck with disbelief and blacks out.

The day Mizuha met Fushi (Izumi knew of Fushi from her days in the cult), Izumi knew she had to do something. She planned a move, but it was already too late as Mizuha took an interest in Fushi. She tries to win back her daughter's heart with the hair tie but it backfired and Mizuha killed her.

She ends by telling Fushi and friends that she's just a toxic parent who could never save her child.

Fushi asks her again if leaving Mizuha alone with the imposter is fine. Izumi asks him why not; Nokker Izumi is no different from any other human. Bonchien asks Satoru how similar the fully-merged Nokkers are with humans. Satoru tells him they resemble humans but it's only a mimicry and they treat humans like dolls.

Izumi interrupts and tells them the password to her computer. She asks them if they have time, to delete the image folder on there as that household no longer needs it. Bonchien relays that to Fushi and he agrees to do so. Izumi gets up and leaves, telling them that she's done. Bonchien asks if she's going to paradise and Fushi tries to convince her to stay by saying he'll destroy the Nokkers and the Guardians for her. However, Izumi tells him not to do anything out of character and that if that's what she wanted, she would've already been begging him to do so. Bonchien however, translates that to Fushi as "thank you" and "I'll think about it." Izumi leaves laughing into the night.